March 27, 2007

• I'm here!!

  the internet here had been down for a couple of days so i couldnt update! someone smashed it, crazy person -_-'''. anyway, ive met some real nice people here, its alot less hectic then last time...althought once again i lost alot of weight in just 3 days i droped 2kgs...so now they are locking my door after my meals which has made me feel very uncomfortable...my room is the only place i feel cmfortabe after meals. but instead i go outside and talk to a nice guy name peter. we pace alot together, which is bad for me i guess but it helps me relax and put my mind of my last meal. ryan hasnt called at all since i got here, and when i do call him hes so distant which has made eating so much worse...i feel like its all my fault but the nurses are really helpng.

   

  ill be doing a eating disorder support program here soon, a nurse gave me a sheet to fill out of all the eating disorder habits i have through out the whole day. (excuse my spelling mistakrs, i just took my meds @_@). anyway, i now weigh roughly 46kgs, which is ok i guess, my GPs scales have been WAY off...all along i though i weighed 42 when in fact i weighed 48!! O___O'.

  my potassium is also down alot which is partly why thwy are locking my door...yes i have been purging, its so hard not to V_V.

  theres only one other eating disorder patient here, her name is sara, i havent really spoken her that much but shes seems like a nice girls. theres seems to be alot of weird homeless type people here too, they go through the bins and collect stuff like cups and food X_X grroosss! lol.

  peter is sitting next to me right now laughing XD...he makes me smilea lot ^.^. gleee. lol.

  I've alos started colouring in my book, i gave a picture to peter to colour also, it helps him relax, he seems uptight all the time but who can blame him...anyone in here would be uptight...the nurses are worse then ever this time...they just ignore you when you need help...but im being pretty stubborn this time instead of just being quiet like last time.

   

  last night i had a weird moment, the nurse gave me a double dose of my seriqil...so i ended up being REALLY hypo, i waspulling grass out of the ground and waving branches around as though they were wings lol! i also teased the hoeless people with boxes, placing them in front of them and then quickly taking it aaay and running away laughing like a maniac! XD lol. but then it got scary cause i got all confused and axiuos...so a woman named Carol took me to a nurse were i was given a double dose of sleeping pills...i was out like a light within 20mins o.o. Im kinda hoping i get that energy boost tonight so i can do heeps of laps with peter XD...might start a riot too lol XD. ill jump around waving my arms about, show everyone what  crazy really means lolololXD.

  Well i guess thats it for now, ill see if i can update again tomorrow...but everyone here seems pretty eger to go on the computer...-_- bastards lol

   

  see yas xoxoxox

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