December 31, 2007

• Times have changed!

  Nick and i have broken up due to a lot of hectic things, one due to a car crash that nick, glen (a friend) and i were involved in, our car got T-Boned at a intersection and the car that his us hit MY door. I ended up in hospital with minor injuries, mostly bruises and a left cracked rib. The bad thing is, it was ALL nicks fault seeing he had taken 10 2mg xanax and MADE e come with him in the car to score speed and before i knew it we were in a crash. All the time nick just wanted my atm card seeing i had money and he didn't. Any he's now gone and I'm still at Matt's place...Matt and i have now hooked up and all the tension i had felt with nick and now gone. Matt is like the opposite to nick. For the last month and a half nick had been verbally abusing the fuck out of me and even threatening to KILL me O_O. I had been too petrified to leave him and even now I'm shit scared of him. He still has a house key to where I'm living so when ever someone knocks on the door i get all paranoid thinking its nick coming back to get me! But i know matt will protect me ^_^.

  I'm still very much into speed which i fucking hate cause its all nicks fault for getting me into it -_-'....but matt is helping me a lot keeping me off it...love him so much ^_^ just the urge is always there and driving me fucking insane!!! O____O.

  I really;;y want to get in touch with a friend but i lost her number seeing nick stole my phone (probably to sell it for drugs) and so i lost her number ...so i left her an email and hopefully shell get back to me.

  I though having an eating disorder was bad enough but having a drug problem AND an eating disorder fully sucks hard core....id rather be dead...but i gotta living on and work through it, i got more to live for and just gotta keep strong, gotta keep looking forward to tomorrow cause tomorrow might bring something worth looking forward to and who knows...it might help me become stronger and live longer!

  I'm also sorry for not updating as much but matt and i now have our own computer so soon well get the internet and it'll all be back to normal were i can update everyday and comment back to everyone i know and love on here...until then...i hope everyone had a merry christmas and a very happy new year!!!

   

  I LOVE YOU ALL!! M<3<3<3<3

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