May 18, 2008

• Perth

  I'm back! its been forever! Well as you can see i'm very much alive and i am in perth (just got here friday) and back with matt...i have a little explaining to do!
  About 4 or so hours after my last entry i ODed and nearly DIED! Berky had mixed up my last shot, I didn't even have time to put the lid back on the bloody needle :-/. before i knew it i was in hospital, i had to have 3 shots of narcaine and got the zapper as my heart had stopped. was blue and wasn't breathing for a good 10 minutes...i should be dead. When i woke up i started to cry, all i wanted was matt to be next to me, to comfort me and remind me he did love me and didn't want me to die. So i started to text him...he walked from mitchem to maroonda hospital to be with me...thats well over 10kms.
  The next day i went straight onto methadome and i am still on it, its a life saver! Makes me not think or crave the stupid crap! But ever since its not like i had stopped using completely, every now and again it got out of hand. Like me going on 7 different phone plans, the phones were worth $1400 EATCH...i sold them all for $250 each...just for a few fixes and i till have to pay for each phone.

  ANYway, my last hit i almost OD again, which was last friday ;-/...matt nearly called the ambulance but i just passed out on the couch...a strong batch i guess? OH! also, i got a cute little kitten for my birthday! i named her tiger due to the stripes she has ^_^. So, one of the reasons for matt and i coming to perth was to have a break from drugs and hopefully return back home drug free forever! But...my eating disorder never died...oh well id rather that then drugs any day...at least my dad still talks to me then.

  Well i have to go, not the most best entry but at least now you all know i havent died or something :p

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