December 24, 2011
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It's Chrsitmas Again
And to tell you the truth... It's only 3am and I'm already over it. Peter gave me an early xmas gift, I loved it, he gave me a small silver pendant with my favorite picture of us lazerd onto it with the word "forever" printed on the back, I cried when he gave it to me.
Well... another 12 months trying for a baby and no luck... that's 2 and a half years now. I'm SO temped to go online and buy this medication called "Clomid" to help us have a baby. I'm so scared that due to my past anorexia that I am now unable to get pregnant. Every month I'm so carful, I make sure I'm 100% sure it's the "right time" of the month to have sex, we do it... more then a few times too lol and bah... nothing.
I'm starting to think that maybe I don't deserve to be a mum... Or at least am just not capable, well my body isn't.
Anyway... Merry Christmas everyone....
And if you still read my posts.... Merry Christmas Sarah. xoxoox