June 9, 2009
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When will I be happy again?
Fuck I miss Peter… I tried so hard to visit him today. You see, I only had 75% proof of I.D and I needed 100%, so the first time I tried visiting him I just got sent away! So today, I went and got my birth certificate renewed which meant I finally had enough I.D to see him! But… The visiting cut off time is 3:30pm and you “must” be in “before” 3pm… I got in at 3:10pm… And I was denied…
I’m starting to cut again, I haven’t eaten in like 3 days and I’m not even trying to “fast”… I just can’t eat, I’m too fucking depressed! First my love of my life gets taken away and then I lose my baby! I feel like crying as I type… However, I “am” seeing him tomorrow for an hour contact visit! I’ll tell you guys all about it too!
I think I might change the layout to my xanga, it’s kind of old. Plus Tiger isn’t with me anymore.
Guys… the shit I’ve done in the past year due to heroin would totally turn you off even talking to me anymore… although I’m sure most of you have already forgotten about me.
Anyway, I’ll update tomorrow or a.s.a.p.
Comments (8)
We haven't forgotten you.
I hope you have a great visit with peter tomorrow
<3
You should eat for the sake of your baby.
@The_modern_end -
It was amazing! I couldn’t stop crying when I saw him! I was supposed to have a one hour contact visit but I arrived 10 minutes late, so instead I could only have a 50 minute contact visit and went by so fast! I didn’t want to leave him!
. But it did cheer me up a lot 
, I’ll be seeing him again soon, although I’m only allowed one contact visit a week so all my other visits until a new week starts are “box visits” which means I’ll be seeing him behind a wall of glass! 
. Thanks for not forgetting about me 
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@sk8rgrrrl_punk -
Sadly I’m not pregnant anymore due to all the stress I have been under
. But Peter and I really want to have a baby, so we’ll be trying again when he get’s out 
! Plus, I think it was for the best that I didn’t have the baby as I am still on methadone, have hepatitis C and am not fully off Heroin 
! And of cause we first need to get married 
! He told me that when I went to visit him, he wants to marry me, like his Mum is already telling everyone that I’m her daughter in-law 
! Ha! Ha!
@vvbutterflyvv - aww!
Well I really hope your recovery goes well. Is hepatitis C treatable? Can you pass it on to your baby?
HUN!!!! im on here again as well, i have missed you so much and had been checking your page to look for an update on how you are doing. im here for you to talk to anytime you want... i wish you the best of luck <3..
@sk8rgrrrl_punk -
Yes, Hepatitis C “is” treatable but it takes along time involving an injection that goes into your liver twice a week for a year
! And the side effects are like going through chemo! Which is why I haven’t started it yet 
. And no, it can not be passed onto the baby as the baby has a totally different blood type and the only way you can get Hepatitis C is sharing Hepatitis C infected syringes, or blood to blood contact!
@ThinSatisfaction -
Thank you so much sweety
! So many close friends of mine have just dumped me right when I needed them most 
! I’m going through such an hard time right now, I don’t think I could manage without at least “one” friend to cry on when I need to 
.
, I hope soon enough everyone that once knew me will start talking to me again!
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